Michael's Monthly Message - November 2007
Dear Family, Friends and Supporters:
Welcome to my monthly message for November 2007!
This is my favorite month of the year and not because it's the month I was born either. I just really love the cool weather and sometimes witnessing the first snow of the year. But more importantly, "Thanksgiving Day!" Boy, I remember my grandmother (Gam) use to go all out on Thanksgiving dinner and usually, before dinner, I got to the bowl of cashews before my dad. I also have some really nice memories on Thanksgiving with my ex-wife's' family too.
Most of you will acknowledge that we are suppose to be thankful on Thanksgiving Day for what we have. However, sometimes it's easy to get caught up in the everyday problems and forget what's most important. Well--let me be a reminder that the most important thing in our lives is family and close friends. So, this year no matter what problems you may have or what family members you're mad at, please forgive them and be grateful for what you have.
Okay, now I am going to apologize and ask for forgiveness from all the people I upset over the years starting with my ex-wife and children. It really bothers me that I wasn't more mature at the time we had our second daughter because I would have recognized my ex-wife was just being a good mother and wife , and wasn't ignoring me. But instead the jackass I was turned to drugs. I'm truly sorry for not being a better father and husband. I'm sorry for what I put my ex-wife's parents and the rest of their family through too. I've had some nice times with all of you; hopefully you can forgive me.
I apologize to any families and friends I may have upset over the years going all the way back to my first friends Paul, Kevin, Rick, John, Mike, and RT. And John, I will be forever grateful to Marilou and you for taking me in and helping save my soul. You taught me to be baptized in Jesus' name and filled with the Holy Ghost. Heck, I still speak in tongues to this day. Also I can't forget my good buddy Dave and his family; I really miss you guys! I'm sorry to all my former friends in Delaware: we shared some good times. I'm sorry to all my past employers and past employees. And, last I apologize to my mom, and dad and aunt. I really wish I could be there to help you. Well, I'm sure it's obvious I left out quite a few people but please know I'm truly sorry for offending anyone no matter what it was. Hopefully, everyone excepts my apology and if not, be rest assured I'm suffering more then you could imagine. In addition. I too have forgiven everyone who has hurt me. So with that said, I hope everyone will take a moment this Thanksgiving to understand that you can't truly be thankful, if you won't forgive.
On a different note, I want to give a special "shout out" to Raven, Medicine Story and Erika and remind everyone that it's Native American Month "un-ho!"
With regard to my birthday, I wish by some miracle that I can see my daughters before I die so I can tell them in person how much I love them. Without my daughters in my life, there is a part of me that's missing and words will never express that pain. (If wishes were tears the world would be flooded)
The Attorney General's office finally wrote their opposition to my federal habeas. Unfortunately, it seems the Commonwealth of Massachusetts is pretty adamant that I die in prison. Hopefully that will not be my destiny. Maybe the NEIP will prevail or the private investigator I'm trying to hire?
Before I forget I want to send out a big "Happy Birthday" to Liz, Dave and my Mother. They're all Scorpios like me!
My movie recommendation is: "Hidalgo" with Viggo Mortiensen. This is a wonderful movie about remembering who you are and being proud of your heritage. If you love horses, this is a must see! I never knew they had thousand mile horse races across desserts. Plus the horse in the movie is Viggo's real horse. You'll like this movie.
My profound movie quote is: "The things we can touch have no permanence, it's all an illusion. A man's primary need is to learn he must let go; only then can he possess what is truly real" (Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon)
Until next month --- take care and remember; the answers to the mysteries of life hide in the pain of our most difficult experience.
Love and light to all,
Michael
P.S. Happy Thanksgiving!
